Assalamualaikum and hi,
       fuuuhhhhh........ dah lama tak update blog ni. dah berhabuk dahh. today is 4th of Ramadhan. to all muslims yang membaca blog ni, puasa ye. jangan tinggal puasa. hopefully ramadan tahun ni lebih bermakna daripada tahun yg lalu. nowadays, i was so busy with dance and exam. today i busy with homework that not finish yet. actually, i rindu kat Muhd Khairul Anuar. tadi pergi stalk facebook dia. i guess what, he so happy with his girlfriend. firstly, when i was with him, i don't know that he already got a girlfriend. i accepted him purpose. then after a few days, i know that he already had umairah. i was so mad with him. but i tak berapa nak marah maybe i already learn from my past. don't to love and believe my boyfriend. i be his second girlfriend. aku selalu mengalah. even sometimes bukan salah aku. kalau aku merajuk aku sendiri yang pujuk diri aku. tapi satu hari tu dia buat decision yang dia still nk kt umairah. at first, i can't accept it but day by day, i can because i don't deeply in love with him like when i was emy's. but i wonder why Allah bagi kebahgaian sekejap ja kat aku. dia ambik balik kebahagiaan tu. mcm mana aku dengan emy dulu. kadang2 aku tertanya aku tak layak ka untuk terima kebahagiaan? atau aku memang sudah ditakdirkan takkan bahagia? hmm i don't know. but hanis selalu bagi kata2 positive bila aku ws dia sedih2 mcm tu. i believe in Allah, insyaallah aku akan terima kebahagiaan tapi bukan sekarang. for anuar, semoga berbahagia ye dengan ummairah. i've no right to decision your life. but i just want you to know that i will be always love you.

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